strange spring

right after the beginning there is
a mistake with an unknown cost

did you know you laugh more than
you used to before?

.

this season sucks the air from my lungs
on its way to everywhere new

armor shield need and needle
let my hands wring a friction fire
let me carry myself more lightly into winter

in a quiet moment before the blinding
light i feel like i am asking too much

i told you the trampoline was broken i mean
my foot was broken i mean
i need to hear its been fixed before
i can get back in the mesh ring

screwed and de-screwed unscrew me renew me
please let them not see right through me fuse and undo me

take me where they take the apples
where not even dying is still

the woman with the wooden handled screwdriver
pierces the flesh, wet honey
crisp drip
lefty loosey righty tighty

the planets loop longly as the clock hand grasps
my throat i can withstand any sensation if i sever it first

on/off/on/off

quantum cauterization
to seal the story

i reattach me limb by limb
my shattering replanted fruited divided

i rejoin the dirt of my scattered selves
let me carry myself more lightly into winter

cradled in soil
i pray that my toil
bring me a strange spring